Doing the mural today, I became aware of whatever fearlessness I've gained since my first year in Stac. I was quick and certain and never once wanted to erase! I even really enjoyed doing it. I actually came to some unexpected endings. I was never one to look back at a free writing exercise and come across things I forgot about writing, but that's what it felt like today. I learned that I connect love to hope to religion and somehow to perfection! Yes, what we did today actually helped me figure out what may be at the core of everything on my mind right now. I'm a perfectionist! I see the world as too complicated for me to handle. I don't modify the world to make it perfect, I modify my mind to believe it already is. On a bigger scale, I'm wondering if we all live in our perfects worlds. Can we survive knowing that the world isn't perfect? Is perfection not the impossible thing, but the only thing?
I'm figuring this out as I go along, and the answer is yes! We are all perfect in our own world. We can't help it. Everything I do changes my world just as everything my world does changes me. This goes on in a perfect circle.
Oh man, I don't even know where to approach what you've written. It is just so damn big. You're writing a paragraph and going from erasers to religion and finding the whole of the world inside of you. I'm not sure I can be the guru you need. Hmmm... a friend of mine has been posting some clips on FB, I have to root them out for you.
ReplyDeleteFearless, genius, you... there's a t-shirt slogan for ya!
Ok. This is Mooji. Have a listen.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-yMb3jKaYs
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